So today I went to aditya’s house, he is abt my age and is already settled with a house, I saw the house, the effort he has put in to build it is commendable, the way he manages his finances its quite commendable, what has he got that I don’t? Babu sir says he is focused, I don’t think that is the case, I think he is organised and planned as a person. Which is kinda crucial to a person, to be organise, something that I am not!! Aside from that, he has an excellent memory, a brilliant memory to be remembering things, something that I don’t have again, which is bad, I’ve always remembered trivial things, things of inconsequential significance, things about that people and things that I don’t know about, which makes me generally well aware of the things happening in the world, but I am absolutely unaware of the people around me as to their nature, demeanour, likes and likes, a charachter flaw in me, that passes of as being inconsiderate, obtuse, and being careless. But I care about people that I am fond of, or maybe I am confused about whether I care enouigh about people or am I a bit to self absorbed.
Its funny you only analyze things when shit befalls you, you wouldn’t ordinarily give a damn about it.
My random days of adolescence have left me as a random person, I live in chaos and randomness, to the extent that nothing at this point is organized or planned in my life, right from my hairstyle to my wardrobe to the way I even put my thoughts across, my thoughts need to be structured and I need to be more observant, I have the memory of a fish, or rather I have had the memory of a fish uptil now, but I hope to change it now, tO remember things that I see, hear, speak and see, only need to remember these 4 simple things I don’t see any problem in doing that. I gueSs a lot of things in life would become simpler for me if I were to start following these little steps towards being more focused towards myself.
